I keep telling Chris that its kismet, he and I. Kismet means fate; destiny. We’ve come into each others lives at precisely the worst possible time. Here I am with no real job and no real place to call home; he’s in the exact same spot. But together we can help each other and have been doing so since day 1. We haven’t gotten much further ahead, but we also haven’t sunk any further.
I love him so dearly. I know these feelings are true, and that they are mutual. I can tell by the way he looks at me, I can feel it when he touches me and kisses me. When he makes love to me there is no denying that his feelings for me are just as strong and run just as deep.
Our goal right now is to get an apartment together, a little studio that can be our little love nest. A place we can go and be alone and spend time getting to know each other better, more intimately and personally. I’ve told him I love him a thousand times, but those words have yet to cross his lips. He doesn’t say it, but its the way he doesn’t say it that tells me he does.
I love all the little things about him. First and foremost I love how artistically talented he is. I love the passion he has for his art. I love the way he folds towels. I love how fussy and neat he is with his stuff. I love his jokester personality. I love the way he watches out for me. I love the way he thinks of me as he’s thinking of himself.
I tell him all the time we’re kismet, meant to be. The other day we were talking and he said he doesn’t know why, he can’t explain it but he just can’t let me go for a second.
Kismet for sure….